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02:17 pm

http://www.testriffic.com/friendtest/2570525

12:44 pm

i love melanie jane

06:36 pm

08:05 pm

i do really well when my day is structured. i had a really good week even though i am really busy with school and work. it reminds me of high and middle school when i had school and then swimming every day. i like living like that for some reason probably because i am used to it. i am doing better in school and eating better. haha. my life is pretty boring though id say. oh well. i cant wait to go to boston to see my nieces and i might go home too. who knows. i want to go to oklahoma to see lorine too. next summer i am going to africa hopefully to see ginny. my roommates are so annoying sometimes...they dont fit in with my school schedule..i can be so so anti social sometimes.

09:39 pm

i am home for a few weeks. i drove home with ginny. we broke down in little rock. i am driving back with my dad. louisa is 2 and sweet pea will be born next tuesday. i am going back to LA on friday with my dad. my mom got a new car. i love it. friday night makes me chuckle. i got to see mel and jill who seem to be doing really well. i miss catherine. i am excited to see ginny next week. i cant wait for lorine and jeannine to come back in august.

11:33 pm

i fucking hate finals. especially when i have ignored my classes all year and now i need to do well...and i have 9 hours....

04:44 pm

You Should Be A Leo

What's good about you: you always speak your mind and aren't scared of anything What's bad about you: you have to be the boss, and you love to control others In love: you enjoy being admired and pampered, but don't always reciprocate In friendship, you're: easy to get along with and the center of attention Your ideal job: member of royalty, TV anchor, or investment banker Your sense of fashion: classic well fitting clothes that last forever You like to pig out on: Greek or Italian food

09:46 am

i havent updated in a while so im sure everyone is on the edge of their seats for this. everything is good. mexico 2 weekends ago was awesome. including some late night swimming and dancing in the street. this week has been stressful. im glad that jeannine is my roommate. she is the perfect person to hang out with in almost every situation. i passed out in the drive way on friday night haha ...on purpose kind of... saturday we met ginny for drinks. its always good to see her. its alot of pressure for me to be on theta exec. im afraid im gonna mess up. but i probably wont because im awesome haha. i need to focus in on school and stuff. and i really need to clean my room. Megan is coming to visit me in march and im really really excited. tuesdays are long days at school for me but then i dont have to work so im excited to be done today. alright well i guess thats about it. peace out. good luck out there

05:47 pm

CowTipper829 signed on at 5:44:30 PM.
Cathi1610: heyy
CowTipper829: hey, but this is not Jeannine but dad
Cathi1610: oh hi..i hope you had a good christmas! its jeannines roommate cathi
Cathi1610: ill talk to her later
CowTipper829: She has headed to Springfiled to watch the neon lights
CowTipper829: OK
CowTipper829: very good christmas, Jeannine was civil
Cathi1610: haha good..have a great night
CowTipper829: you to

04:51 pm

( bored )

04:18 pm

because you teach me
because with you everythings fun
because i can be myself
because i have someone to depend on
because you make me a better person
because i love you
because you let me into your life and want to become part of mine
because you help me
thats why youre my best friend

03:50 pm

i really think he might be the one im supposed to be with..maybe thats part of her purpose to me. i wish i knew how to make these things work. because everyone i think of isnt as good. i wish i knew how to get what i want but i really wish i knew exactly what i wanted. i love my sisters

10:50 pm

i want:
to be quieter
to speak more clearly
to stop answering questions that arent directed at me
to stop speaking for other people
to stop feeling sorry for myself
to stop feeling insecure
TO CALM DOWN
to get better grades
to not constantly be afraid that people don't like me or are mad at me
to say what i want
to be able to express unhappiness articulately
TO BE HAPPY for more then a few hours at a time
to stop enjoy being sad
to stop seeking attention
to stop testing my "best friend"
to be nice
not to get in fights
TO CALM DOWN
to remember that im mad at myself when im unfriendly
to be friendlier
to realize that no one is perfect
to understand that what's meant to be will happen
to realize that i can't force someone to care about me
to remember that just because i would jump under a train for someone doesnt mean that they have to do the same thing
to stop seeking approval
to stop hoping for things to get better
to remember that i like myself
to be positive
to stop defending myself to other people or me
to calm down

02:31 pm

im really worried about you and i feel bad and im mad at myself that theres nothing that i can do and that i dont care more. i know what its like to want people to reach out to you and i feel bad that im not doing it. i love you but i don't have the energy or a way to really help. everyone has a choice to accept the person and the behavior or not and i cant do it. its almost inmaterial to me which makes me sad but i know itll buff out.

anyway...we had initiation. it was good. i think im gonna try really hard to be quieter. just a quieter person. and to not complain. starting now.

04:42 pm

initiation tomorrow. im real excited.

happiness is a choice - i vote yes.

10:36 am

i went to 6 flags yesterday. it was fun. catherines brothers are here. they are really nice and cool. ive had fun hanging out with them. the 6 flags here once again has proven to be about 80 million times better then the one at home. im in accounting but im not paying any attention. and i NEED to do my calculus homework. that class is actually hard because its ALL computer and we cant use calculators. i need to be more laid back and calm down. TOMORROW i have to be at school at SEVEN to go to the volunteer day. its fineable by the minute. its funny because it seems like it would completely suck and it will and im gonna complain and im gonna be pissed that i have to get up so early, BUT its this kind of thing that brings us closer. catherine got excused. pretty unfair but in actuality fair.

09:55 am

04:21 pm

i care too much about you for this. i know you don't have time to talk and that's fine. im sorry about everything and above all i want you to know that you mean alot to me and there is pretty much nothing that could happen that would make me not want to be your friend. but for now, i'm done with this, and you can let me know if you ever want to talk. <3

07:32 pm - somewhat sad yet excited

I don't have to tell you what this is all about
Cause baby half the fun is in us figuring it all out
So why you gotta ask me what I'm doing now
Cause I don't know
What I still haven't found

So don't turn off the lights
I don't wanna be in the dark night
Cause I can read your mind
I need to know if what I'm dong is right
So don't turn off the lights

So tell me I'm gonna get you
It's so hard to even try
But if we move together
We'll end up on the second song

If you could know what you're feeling
If you could know where you go
If you want to know what I'm thinking

So don't
So don't turn off the lights
I don't wanna be in the dark night
Cause I can read your mind
I need to know if what I'm dong is right
So don't turn off the lights

**i cant wait to come home!! but i really miss ginny.

06:17 pm